Quickie personal hat project. Made it, using a Brother SE1900 sewing & embroidery machine. The hardest part was pinning the hat firmly. The actual embroidery itself was fast since it was done by a machine.

My brain rediscovered it's How to Clean & Tidy Stuff for Dummies yesterday & I've finally given my kitchen worktops a full clean, even the parts buried under things.

Hopefully next time will be a little easier as the clean means I am finally using a few worktop storage racks & baskets that I probably bought over two months ago… Thinking about it I think I bought them before xmas .
Yeah, my concepts of past time tend to fall of a cliff after a few days or maybe a week.

I've also finally tidied, cleaned & got my coffee tables looking a bit more festive to brighten the place up a bit. Now I can finally chill out & enjoy Ostara (Easter).

Some of you already know this: I've been trying to (literally) work through #AuDHD burnout for months now. It's been going as well as one might expect, which is to say Very Much Not Good, to the point of pushing me into a crisis.

The ADHD assessment I recently paid for was... let's not go there. I posted about it previously, but I've had time to think, and I'm angry. Way too angry to discuss it further right now. (User-pay Autism assessments cost way more, btw.)

So when your best option fails, what do you do?

The health care and "mental health" systems where I live are a colossal mess. Either you have money to find the right solutions or you're forced into the publicly-funded Tiny Little Box. You fit into that, or good friggin' luck.

It's quite an experience for your brand-new primary care provider try to push you into a situation that doesn't feel safe, and then discover that the alleged two-week wait is nearly two months.

But then.

In a way I never imagined, support came from an unexpected direction.

So I moved from anxiety level 11 to about 3.5 in record time.

Also unexpected is I've shifted from crisis mode to a Gen-X menopausal intersectional feminist rage cauldron.

Which means my already-overloaded neurodivergent brain has moved into a new phase of decolonization. (I pity the next fool who tries to tell me to be quiet and fit in.)

But the big lesson here is the value of people who actually give a damn. The people who can hold space, and who understand what "grace" means. The people who value you as a human being, not a problem to be solved, not a pathology, or a set of symptoms. The people who don't have to know all the details to have your back.

We need more of those people. I'm so grateful I have some of them in my life.

I'm by no means on solid ground but lemme tell ya, the rage cauldron is 1000% better than existential terror.

Current status: contemplating the essential #AuDHD-ness of the saying "Anything worth doing is worth overdoing."

At least now I know what I'm doing with my whole day.

ADDENDUM:
Another good AuDHD saying: "Nothing succeeds like excess." (There's an Oscar Wilde quote for almost everything.)

When you allow yourself to do less, or to do it in smaller bits or not to the full extent that you want, you’re starting to build a trust with yourself that you’re going to be able to do things.

You’re teaching your nervous system that it’s going to be okay in the future, by knowing when it is too much to do.

Ich habe heute Nacht geschlafen! Über acht Stunden! Nur ein paar mal kurz aufgewacht.

Wie leicht Schlafen funktioniert, wenn man mir mal ein paar Tage Verschnaufpause einräumt von der Realität... Wir brauchen mehr Feiertage. Vielleicht jeden Freitag. Oder jeden Montag.

y'all, there's a very real chance I'm going to need to get out of the US soon

their war on autistic kids is terrifying

Trump has already said trans people are next

I wish more people understood how dangerous things are right now

help

There’s no way back, but there is a way forward.

The way I see it, autistic anxiety isn't mysterious, unexpected, or shameful. It makes sense. But it also isn't inevitable.

I'd love to share with you how I got a handle on it, so it's really not much of a part of my life anymore. This framework, and concrete techniques, consistently work for my Autistic/AuDHD clients as well.

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There's plenty in the world that's painful for Autistic brain wiring, and it makes sense that creates a lot of anxiety. But what if you could deal with those things without (as much) anxiety making it even worse?

This is what I'd love to share with you in my short course on how to reduce anxiety, from an Autistic/AuDHD perspective. I've lived in the anxiety pit most of my life, and finally figured out what works.

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There are other harsh realities of life that I might have to deal with at some point, and I can face those when they come.

But being uncomfortable right now is not going to help me deal with whatever those might be.

I know for some of us ADHDers, self-care can be a challenge (esp consistently)

So I’m sharing that I’m making myself breakfast with protein in it because it helps my days go better

Because it’s food with protein (obviously)

But it also means I’m being present/conscious about considering my self as important.

I’m celebrating it for the times it’s hard to do.

We aren’t alone.

#adhd #selfcare #neurodivergent #mentalhealth #AuDHD

Cc @actuallyadhd @actuallyautistic

This is the first time I have ever had a fellow #AuDHD as a kindred companion & it feels amazing. The mutual understanding & spiritual bond we share has brightened up both of our lives. I have never felt this level of naturally flowing, deeply profound, intimate connection with anyone else before.
I treasure this unexpected, sacred blessing. I am immensely grateful

Heyhey! I'm new to all of this so thought I'd make an #introduction post!

So hii! I'm Faerie I'm a #queer nonmono #neurodivergent (#AuDHD) #trans puppy boy

I'm mostly here to explore the #furry , #kemonomimi and maybe some (sfw) #petplay related things/people/communities! ️

Autistic burnout recovery is, in its essence, about aligning our internal and our external realities.

I'm offering an early bird sign up bonus for registering for my anxiety reduction course this week. Get an extra live practice session for help applying it to your real life situation.

We'll cover a framework for anxiety reduction that actually works for the Autistic/AuDHD brain, WHY it works, and 8 ways to put it into practice. Intrigued? Details here:

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