A very stressful holiday period is close at hand. A highly triggering person will be here in the house in two or three days, I'm not sure for how long.
I'm stepping my meditation up to an hour a day while they are here. It certainly isn't a cure-all, but previously, stepping up to 40 minutes & sitting earlier in the morning had a definite positive impact.
I'm still amazed at the power of something so simple. I was miserable the past 2 days; it evaporated last night during zazen at my temple.
I might be starting to believe that wild idea that consciousness itself is a first-class constituent of reality along with things like matter & energy. Mostly because "flowers fall with our attachment, and weeds spring up with our aversion" seems so deeply woven into the fabric of my reality that it's practically a law of physics, but one which requires a conscious observer with preferences.
Lately during #meditation, when all the sorrow in my life crowds in, a gravity field, making me heavy, pulling my concentration toward itself... I slip into effortless focus for a few moments and feel it all beginning to rise off me like steam vanishing into air.
This is the truth of no-self, which will take me many more years to really integrate. But the small tastes I've had thus far have been greatly transformative.
I've been streaming the aforementioned 8-hour video of rain & thunder out a relievingly view-free attic skylight a lot lately on my kodi box, and I live in an attic room with no windows at all, and at first I was like "#latecapitalism #cyberpunk #dystopia #mood much?" But then I was like shit, a lot of people in the past didn't have windows either, at least I get to have a fake one with a really good audio track. 🤷🏼♂️ #reframing
I love you so much. Stars lived and died and we arose slimy and crying from this muck of a planet, heads too big to develop fully inside our amniotic basins. From before our first moments in the air, you deserve hugs, patience, and sustenance. We exist as a society for each other and our first duty is to self care, secondly to each other. Siblings on this extraordinary speck in space, you are precious. Thrive in your best life, rest when you need to.
tfw when #ADHD task selection paralysis because all tasks are important but not, like, *immediately* important
Good morning, friends! Remember that detaching yourself from what makes you angry is an effective way to transform that anger into something more productive. A coffee break, a nap, a short walk – anything works. You won’t forget the thing that enraged you, but you’ll be able to frame it in a more useful way.
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tfw when you notice it's almost time to take your meds, so you go to eat them, having conveniently set them out for yourself $time ago, and the meds are gone, and you have absolutely no memory of eating them and thus it cannot be guaranteed
The longer I delay morning #meditation after waking, the more chance for completely pointless chaos to seep in beforehand and disturb my sit.
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