Trusting Wisely - #DharmaTalk
This is a bit of a long one at 21 minutes, but wow, it sure lands dead on target when it comes to why we get hurt after extending #trust to others.
I was starting to very slowly converge toward that ideal of "when someone who I have benefited and in whom I have placed great trust hurts me very badly, I will practice seeing that person as my supreme teacher." I think this will help a great deal.
What it's like Living with Schizophrenia/Schizoaffective Disorder
I reviewed the So, You Think You Want To Live At A Zen Monastery letter / rules etc, and printed out the application.
Even though I'm not looking to do this til autumn at the earliest, the act of applying still fills me with dread, because I can be told no, and that's a Thing for me. And I already hold the people there in high regard.
However, it is sooooo much easier to contemplate / do now that the ball is rolling. Only took me 7 months or more to get here, but now I'm here.
My prescriber bent the rules about Must Be Seen In Office To Get Controlled Meds after learning I was about to burn 3 hours on public transit for our 30-minute appointment.
I'm super grateful for this, but I'm also sort of uncomfortably aware that the level of trust these people are putting in me regarding my DEA schedule II meds is very likely only because I'm white, knowledgeable, sometimes even articulate, and can codeswitch middle class really well.
Ah well, small favors. It's a nice day.
an autistic teenager on why self-advocacy matters
16-year-old activist Emma Zurcher-Long is the co-director of UNSPOKEN, a documentary celebrating autism acceptance.
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I'm finally on the ADHD med my last two docs & I thought was best, after a grueling battle vs myopic Medicaid cost controls. It's a bit of an adjustment.
(The med is generic Dexedrine extended release)
It's interesting bc it doesn't have nearly the wakefulness promoting effect of 4x a day immediate release, so I sometimes feel like it's "not enough," yet it's very helpful. Also: far more monkey mind in meditation.
I can work with it. Just interesting/useful to closely watch the effects.
Something I noticed in the intersect between that Dharma talk and hyperawareness of my own mental states:
In a situation where I have anger / resentment due to social discord, and obsessive rumination about same, those two afflictions seem to fade at different rates. They're not fully coupled.
I'm not sure what to make of this, but it's interesting. Noting a similar decoupling between physical anxiety symptoms vs legit reasons to worry was a fundamental step in learning to cope with anxiety.
Alexandra Elbakyan talks about why she started sci-hub and the intent behind it. This woman is a hero!
Monetary Assistance, neurodivergency, trans Show more
Hi! In my time since leaving the mental health facility I was in, I have been struggling to make ends meet. Thanks to help from a lot of you sweethearts here on the fedi, I've been able to get on my new medication (yay!) I have been trying to get a job, going to temp agencies, etc... But finding work as a low-functioning schizo girl just seems like an impossible wall I can't seem to climb no matter what I do. The Seroquel I'm taking is supposed to start taking effect 6 weeks after I started taking them, and then really settle in 3-6 months. I.. don't know how I'm going to make it that far. I can't pay for my car this month, which is my only way of getting to any work I might hopefully find.
If there's any way you can spare a small donation, it would mean the world to me; Every dollar brings me closer to sustaining myself long enough to be functional. Thank you.
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