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Well I did that, listened to a guided meditation in earshot of others. This is another case where listening to these in a second language is sooo helpful, I'd have been struggling much more with meta-awareness if it were in English.

Given my unstable life, I need to get over my aversion to listening to guided meditations in earshot of other people. I should probably start right now.

One downside of becoming very very good at masking symptoms - as many of us do for reasons of survival - is that you then have to use your words and tell other people when it's important that they know you are having, or are likely to have, symptoms. :|

I'm still not entirely sold on this whole concept of existing as a corporeal entity in a spacetime continuum, tbqh

(ยฑ) personal mh, learning my patterns better Show more

That whole thing about peeps with drawing executive function, impulse control, and ability to maintain focus from the same set of spoons as motivation, energy, and physical capacity for work ........ yeahhhhh that's hitting REAL close to home right now ๐Ÿ˜

I've now had a couple eye-opening experiences trying to meditate in the evening after my brain spent all day soaking in the internet-driven stimulus-response cycle. It's hard to describe, but my very consciousness is altered by it in ways that I don't like.

A while back I decided to abstain from nearly all news & social media (this account being a notable exception) for three days a week; effective immediately, it will be the days where I'm most likely to go sit with the community.

ุฃู†ุช ู…ุญุธูˆุธ ุฌุฏุง ุฅู† ูƒู†ุช ุชู…ู„ูƒ ุดุฎุตุง ุชุญูƒูŠ ู„ู‡ ุชุตุฑูุงุชูƒ ุงู„ุณูŠุฆุฉ ุฏูˆู† ุฃู† ูŠููƒุฑ ุจุฃู†ูƒ ุดุฎุต ุณูŠุกุŒ ู„ุฃู†ู‡ ูŠุนุฑู ุฌูŠุฏุง ุฃู† ุงู„ุฐูŠ ุจุฏุงุฎู„ูƒ ุฃู†ู‚ู‰ ูˆ ุฃุฌู…ู„.

You are very lucky if you have someone to whom you can tell about your bad behaviors without them thinking that you are a bad person, because they know that what is inside you is purer and more beautiful.

ู†ุฒุงุฑ ู‚ุจุงู†ูŠ (Nizar Qabbani)

I reeeeally need to focus primarily on controlling my behavior in response to aversion for a while. Because nearly all my hard to control behavior that is causing me problems is rooted in aversion. And I am in an environment which is richly abundant with aversive stimuli :|

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Sometimes, even those of us who seem like weโ€™ve got our shit together walk around muttering โ€œyouโ€™re doing amazing sweetieโ€œ

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getting depressed after travel or cool social events is a known thing Show more

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getting depressed after travel or cool social events is a known thing Show more

Who wants to be friends on the app? You can use it as a simple timer or to access tons of guided meditations in many languages. Hit me up and we can trade deets in this thread or DMs if you prefer!

It's amazing how quickly the hindrances come back when back in my usual context, but I feel so much more confident in my ability to work beyond them now.

I think can instill that confidence because it's transferable learning: get distracted & return your mind to clear awareness over & over, dozens of times in just one sitting; if you can do that (and you can), surely you can get up and begin again on healthy habits after staying up all night online :p

Going on that workshop retreat was the best thing I've done with my life in years. ๐ŸŒฑโค๏ธ๐Ÿ”ฅ