It is extremely liberating to not pretend that you know things you don't. It also opens you up to a lot more chances to learn shit. It rules

One very bad thing about scientific papers being behind paywalls is that (competing) pseudoscience isn’t behind paywalls, so it’s easier to find misinformation online than to find facts.

Trusting Wisely -

This is a bit of a long one at 21 minutes, but wow, it sure lands dead on target when it comes to why we get hurt after extending to others.

I was starting to very slowly converge toward that ideal of "when someone who I have benefited and in whom I have placed great trust hurts me very badly, I will practice seeing that person as my supreme teacher." I think this will help a great deal.

Lately I've been digging through the Sravasti Abbey back catalog on Youtube looking for wisdom on my current afflictions, and it turns out the founder posted pretty much exactly what I need, just 8 days ago.

What it's like Living with Schizophrenia/Schizoaffective Disorder

I reviewed the So, You Think You Want To Live At A Zen Monastery letter / rules etc, and printed out the application.

Even though I'm not looking to do this til autumn at the earliest, the act of applying still fills me with dread, because I can be told no, and that's a Thing for me. And I already hold the people there in high regard.

However, it is sooooo much easier to contemplate / do now that the ball is rolling. Only took me 7 months or more to get here, but now I'm here.

My prescriber bent the rules about Must Be Seen In Office To Get Controlled Meds after learning I was about to burn 3 hours on public transit for our 30-minute appointment.

I'm super grateful for this, but I'm also sort of uncomfortably aware that the level of trust these people are putting in me regarding my DEA schedule II meds is very likely only because I'm white, knowledgeable, sometimes even articulate, and can codeswitch middle class really well.

Ah well, small favors. It's a nice day.

the exhaustion of pulling the cocoon apart around oneself is real. never forget though that it leads to wind and air and sky and wings πŸ¦‹πŸŒˆβ˜€οΈ

an autistic teenager on why self-advocacy matters

16-year-old activist Emma Zurcher-Long is the co-director of UNSPOKEN, a documentary celebrating autism acceptance.


When you talk about the disability you live with, you give me hope that I can manage my own better.

It let's me see that I'm not alone, and I don't think I'm the only one who appreciates that.

I wonder if anyone reading has experienced a period of avoidance of meditation that they figured out was related to needing (at the time) to process some Stuff in unhealthy ways, because healthy ways were not yet available, and the Stuff was not going to wait.

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Something I noticed in the intersect between that Dharma talk and hyperawareness of my own mental states:

In a situation where I have anger / resentment due to social discord, and obsessive rumination about same, those two afflictions seem to fade at different rates. They're not fully coupled.

I'm not sure what to make of this, but it's interesting. Noting a similar decoupling between physical anxiety symptoms vs legit reasons to worry was a fundamental step in learning to cope with anxiety.

I found this on resentment to be helpful.

"Holding on to resentment and anger is like holding on to two hot coals and expecting they will burn somebody else."

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