tfw you are trying to outrun the mixed episode you are clearly having by clawing your way back to sleep and then obligations & priorities remind you of themselves
I'm proud of this. It was and is a lot of work, but well worth it.
("100%" here means 4 out of every 5 days, which I was informed by a roshi with ~50 years of experience is damn well good enough for a layperson. I'm happy to be exceeding that standard very consistently as of late.)
One of the ways I finally got a morning #meditation routine to stick was by adding "behavioral reinforcers." Some were kinda obvious, like pairing it with tea, and having a chocolate after.
However, I also thought that a visual representation of my effort would be good. So I decided to separate light & dark beads mixed in a jar, one bead per sit.
Yesterday, on New Year's Day, I placed the 90th & final bead into its bowl for the first time. This is what 90 meditation sessions looks like. #bmod
Time to toot my own horn a little bit - this is my habit tracker data for my #meditation practice, which is now about 1 year old. In this case, "100%" means I was mediating 3 out of every 5 days. That's my medium term goal and I am still working on it. But I'm actually impressed and pleased with my dedication over time! 😁😁😁 #habits #SelfDevelopment
mh cognitive symptoms are definitely a thing
Fluctuating cognitive symptoms are one of the scariest parts of what I've got going on and very hard to plan for. How the hell do you persist at recovery when your already shaky ability to remember intentions, make decisions, and execute a plan sometimes just ... evaporates? For weeks?
#executivedysfunction is the most underrated symptom of several otherwise household name illnesses. They didn't even *mention* it to me til I asked for a brain scan.
Sometimes, when friends are struggling, they *can't* ask for help.
Sometimes active engagement is the right thing to do. We need to lift each other up, and to stop letting our culture dissuade us from doing so.
I can't even count how many times in my messed up life when something like this could have had a huge impact. (Right now is one of those times.)
I've been reading a bit more about #ADHD / #ADD in childhood to prove or disprove to myself that it is a trait I possess. Leaving aside debate over what it is or is not, these slides sum up my experience as a #gifted child pretty succinctly.
Slides from Strategies for Twice Exceptional Children Who are Gifted and ADHD, CHADD Conference 2017, by Lori Henderson
BTW, since I'm #procrastinating and because I mentioned the whole text vs video thing, I might as well mention that if you're like me and prefer dense 5,000 word textwalls to snappy 5 minute videos, you might like this classic #waitbutwhy post:
Wait But Why: Why Procrastinators Procrastinate
*sees an article implicating weak "top down" control of the amygdala by the prefrontal cortex in why people with #ADHD struggle with emotion regulation and delayed reward*
*five minutes later, sees a small study suggesting the exact same weak link in "effortful emotion regulation" in people with #bipolar disorder*
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