I have a new symptom regime to figure out. My mood is fairly stable for the moment and a lot better than it's been for much of the past few years, but stress still causes me bouts of cognitive dysfunction, mostly forgetfulness and time blindness with serious executive dysfunction. In short, I become unable to make myself do ANYTHING past the minimum to survive / get to appointments / fake that I'm okay (the double-edged sword of so-called #ApparentCompetence).

It's definitely a low-energy state like my depressive episodes are, and it's *definitely* brought on by stress the same way. And if I stay in it long enough my mood will eventually crumble to match the other symptoms.

It's basically everything I'm used to with depressive lows except the low mood. I suppose the strategies to circumvent or climb out of it will be the same. But like... wtf. Is this change due to meds? DBT? Mindfulness? What is *happening* to me?

My suspicion is that it's like 70% meds & 30% mindfulness. This is better than getting nothing done and being subjectively miserable, but I'm still getting nothing done, and I need to get a *lot* done because I'm not self-sufficient and the clock is ticking on my food & housing.

I'm just tired of this crap, yo. Tired. Since February 95% of my energy has gone to barely maintaining homeostasis. I've gained some insights, so it'd be cool if I could apply them? Idfk.