I wish I’d learned long ago that it’s ok to “just” enjoy things as a member of the audience, a reader, a listener, to “just” be an amateur, to “just” be a fan. It’s possible to not be, or have no prospect of being, the best at something and still pursue and love it with passion.
@fncll sounds like you've learned it now. Hopefully you've found something that gives you great enjoyment.
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